bunny in wonderland

a new year!

2012-02-13T14:37:00.003+08:00

its finally 2012... as it was showing in the movie... hahahaha... the end of the world... well... me and my friends would just live our life to the fullest i suppose :)

be happy and be hungry... hahahaha!

have been busy with the Chinese New Year prep since last X'mas... and finally all the festive are over, time to get back into the reality! yay... it's show time :)

am slowly making big switch for Raeka.Rae... slowly big change, hahahaha love the words :) will do will do... lot of things to do but i'm sure i'll get there, slowly...

have been sick for a while... and shitty... it really freaks me out, its time to really take care of myself and not stuck crazily into works and works and works... so this year, work hard and play hard baby!

another big change - i'm taking breakkie every morning! hahahahaha my parents will be so happy, finally i'm a good girl... well after seriously ill because of the stomach bacteria infection

love my monday! its off-day... means i got a day to just doing nothing :) lovely isn't... hahahaha... nahhh... i'm gonna have to sort our some work stuff later ... that's a life of a not so glamorous fashion designer, muahahahaha.... lovely isn't it!

and i'm coming up with new things :) can't wait for everything to be launch! i can feel that this year Stylo will be best for me! hahahahaha.... gonna kick some ass yo...

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY :)

2011-12-27T00:30:00.005+08:00

woo hooo... Merry Xmas everyone!

have been totally crazy with Raeka.Rae... with all the custom made order and crazy beading... life is totally crazy but fun for me since the last blog I checked in... :p lovely isn't?

well... not much of stuff have been happening in my boring life, been to Hong Kong for Wedding dress showcase and contest, wondering why i was there competing with munch of kids, hahahahaha... din win me an award but it was an eye opening showcase for me... it's a total different scene in Hong Kong... the designs are pretty... well i should say "aged" but some are nice! anyway, not my cuppa... but i love the food, love the shopping, love the craziness of life in that small nutshell city :)

been to some social events throughout the year, pretty nice i should say... at least i feel more comfortable compare to before... hahahahaha and i should say thank you to my dear Edmondie, he is extremely great with all the marketing and PR thingy, still learning lots from him :p

and... Leo boy is so mature these days... such a big sweet heart! love him with all my heart!

ohhh and i did lots of tweets lately... and tumblr!!! that's my favorite loitering "homework" currently... hahahahaha... just a great site to share my photos and view lots of great shoots from people around the world! and FB isn't my top choice as my account was hacked... bad experienced... and not much of privacy in it anyway... but it's a great site for my work... well... no one is perfect anyway :)

i've set my resolution for the new year... still making most of it :)

1. full focus my collection, still gotta do some purchasing but will be focus in my RTW... yay, kinda look forward to it!

2. travelling! woo... this i can't wait, i'm gonna get a nice map and map out the places i wanna go!!

3. save some money... hahahaha.... or should i say, clear all my debts! shit... i will get it done very soon :)

that's all... ohhhh... one more -

4. paint!! yes... i will go back to my root, painting and drawing, and my target is 20 pieces in a year :) what will i paint? i'm thinking a dream-like fairytale land... yes... here comes my sketchbook working ...

that's much as i can think of at this hour, good night peepers, and Happy New Year!!!

hmmmm

2011-06-12T17:44:00.001+08:00

half way going crazy and half way dying!!!

shit.... too many things and too little time...

Leo's boy is 2!

2011-06-05T22:30:00.003+08:00

my precious boy is 2 on Friday :) hahahaha... but nothing much about him is showing me that he's turn big boy actually... he is still a big baby, still being the usual naughty boy, still asking for his kiss kiss every night and early morning :)

i love him!

trust me, without him, i wouldn't able to go through all the heartbreak...

i was definitely surprised that he's a favorite for all my friends and most of my customer :p and some actually bought cupcake to celebrate for him! OMG... hahahahha i think he has his own fans base lately...

and of course, i'm having a tiny cozy dinner party for the boy with some of his friends, though as usual, he just being the PR dog as usual...

its Nana and BiBi at the back, Leo and Hazel que-ing for their photo session... hahahaha... i'm just kidding, i dunno what are they doing :p

HAPPY BARK-DAY LEO.boy!!

stay happy and healthy for mommy because you are always my angel!

love ya!

Last Night - Trailer

2011-05-22T02:33:00.000+08:00

Ballet Shoes, the movie

2011-05-22T01:50:00.004+08:00

love this movie, love the costumes, all that thirties to forties outfits, my favourite!!!

just love this!!

hahahahaha

2011-05-15T00:51:00.005+08:00

ust a plain Saturday, another weekends, another day crashing brainstorm with my lovely friend at bar...

he buzz me, he's been very needy lately :p hahahaha i wonder what happened?? hmmm??? i wish i know...

as usual, skype :) and he ask me the same question he's been asking me last week, and a month ago, and last x'mas... will i marry him? hahahahaha....

should i dedicate Colbie Caillat's I Do for him ya :p

yes Stuart, i do, i do, i do :) if only you keep your promise :) and your heart is with me...

something borrowed!

2011-05-10T00:13:00.002+08:00

how many times have you let true love slips away...

i hope i won't.

well, we never know ...

Dolce & Gabbana Women Spring/Summer 2011 (Full Show)

2011-05-08T14:35:00.000+08:00

the trip

2011-05-02T18:41:00.002+08:00

travel to China again... this time i travel alone :) love the time that i have for myself, and well... guess that i'm stronger each time, that i can really be ALONE :) wahahahahaha... well of course not all the time being alone, i have a superb-assistant that will assist me through-out the purchasing trip, and a driver who is able to drive me everywhere... you know, in China, sometimes its terrible not to have people that you know...

anyway... love the time, though i dun favor the city, the place is too dirty, the air is congested and polluted, the people is very rude in their own culture, i can't communicate properly with them... well... of all... still enjoying the adventure!

Street chic in London (more like me)

2011-04-25T17:00:00.001+08:00

hahahahaha.... yes... and i mean it, more like what i'm wearing :p

Tu Es Partout

2011-04-24T23:43:00.000+08:00

Nous nous aimions bien tendrement
Comme s'aiment tous les amants
Et puis un jour tu m'as quittee
Depuis je suis desesperee
Je te vois partout dans le ciel
Je te vois partout sur la terre
Tu es ma joie et mon soleil
Ma nuit, mes jours, mes aubes claires

Tu es partout car tu es dans mon coeur
Tu es partout car tu es mon bonheur
Toutes les choses qui sont autour de moi
Meme la vie ne represente que toi
Des fois je reve que je suis dans tes bras
Et qu'a l'oreille tu me parles tout bas
Tu dis des choses qui font fermer les yeux
Et moi je trouve ca merveilleux

Peut-etre un jour tu reviendras
Je sais que mon coeur t'attendras
Tu ne pourras pas oublier
Les jours que nous avons passes
Mes yeux te cherchent sans arret
Ecoute bien mon coeur t'appelle
Nous pourrons si bien nous aimer
Tu verras la vie sera belle

http://lyricstranslate.com

heart this!

2011-04-24T23:32:00.000+08:00

Red Riding Hood

2011-04-24T22:26:00.005+08:00

yay... after almost 6months... i stepped in the cinema again... hahahaha... i can't really remember what's the last movie i watched... probably its Harry Potter.... not so sure anyway :p

its an urban version of fairy tale, everything in it is to fit into the contemporary audience... its entertaining anyway, especially the handsome boys :) hahahahaa....

i prefer Henry :p played by Max Irons.... hahahahaha...

and he is in Mango H.E. menswear

Jodhaa Akbar

2011-04-24T22:14:00.004+08:00

yes.... hahahaha... its an Indian movie, don't ask!

i love the production, the colors and the costumes, its total overwhelming! the details are seriously breathless...

Amazing Hats

2011-04-24T20:11:00.009+08:00

Couture peacock and felt headpiece, by Waldorf Exacting.

Beatrice silk hat with bees, by Katie Burley.

Loopy hat, by Stephen Jones Millinery.

Floral hat by Philip Treacy.

Matte Black headdress, by Alexis Bittar

Sculpted Hat with Blue Shot Silk, by Judy Bentinck.Velvet Polkadot couture headpiece, by Arturo Rios.

Spirits Resting hat, by Stephen Jones.

Butterfly hat, by Philip Treacy for Alexander McQueen.

Moulin Rouge hat, by Anya Caliendo.

*from Elle.com

Street chic in Milan & Paris

2011-04-24T19:55:00.004+08:00

Spring 2011 in Milan

and Paris - look (this is so me... my way of styling :p)

Street chic in New York (from Elle.com)

2011-04-24T19:51:00.003+08:00

spring 2011

Legend of the Guardians: The Owls of Ga’Hoole

2011-04-24T17:21:00.004+08:00

ohhh gosh i should have watch this earlier :p

anyway... its inspiring!!!

ps: and Leo is sticking besides me all the time :) i think he loves me too much! hahahahahha....

...

2011-04-24T15:46:00.000+08:00

out of ideas...

shit!

goal SEt!!!

2011-04-17T16:24:00.003+08:00

yes... finally!

i'm gonna drop everything here and leave :)

so so so happy about this!

hahahahaha.... of course Raeka Rae will still be running, and will get a team of people to assist in making it works wonder!

the reason for me making up my mind - alot of reasons...

because ... seriously... 10yrs is a long time ... and i don't wanna be someone's puppet anymore ... and i'm not happy here ...

i don't know what will happen in the new place, but i'm looking forward for everything, a good start!

and i'm glad polar bear is giving full support :p thanks love! your love is all i need :)

Venie Tee finale at STYLO 2011

2011-04-04T19:12:00.000+08:00

i'm making my own fairy-tales

2011-04-04T18:31:00.003+08:00

its Stylo again :) the so-called "fun for ourselves" type fashion showcase, but i need it for my brand exposure, and also, i missed last year's show, was in bad shape because of the whole divorce thingy and also running away from KL during that period... yea... depression sucks!

anyway, this year happens to be a good one for me, everyone sorta look forward for my collection, hahahaha... are they? well i'm not so sure, was told about that but who cares, i've never really bother about what other's judgement about my collection, as long as i know what i'm doing, and i'm happy in what i'm doing, lets just makes the dreams come true!

ready for the show @backstage

the finale

as usual... i dun really like being the center stage :p

thanks to these fairies!!!

and here's the video, thanks to Brenda for loading it!

kinda... sad

2011-03-28T00:08:00.003+08:00

we lost a friend on Tuesday...

he was young at age, his life stopped at 30, but his smile will always remembered!

their love is so strong that makes me shed every time i think of it...

be strong babe, time will heal your pain...

may you rest in peace my dear friend...

thanks for the love!

2011-03-21T23:33:00.003+08:00

its the story of little lizard and Mr polar bear...

they were both traveled to the same foreign land during their teenage years, to learn new things and to shape who they are... they might have met somewhere, somehow, in this land of lions... but they were tied up with own species and happily living their crazy young life...

little lizard is a famous bunny, hop around gardens, cheering others in laughter... she flew back to her homeland and continue pursuing her dreams, it wasn't long before she got herself into the world of fame... but she wasn't happy!

mr polar bear stays back, living his life as a foreigner, falling in love, achieving his dreams, and finding love again...

its been 10years since little lizard was back from the foreign land once she called home... she fell in love, tied a knot, fell out of love... and was badly torn...

she is lucky to have a haven build by families and friends to shelter over her, mend the broken her... and she's back hopping, but carefully not getting hurt... too careful that she tends to build herself a solid tend that no one is able to find the key to unlock the door...

a year has passed ... little lizard and Mr polar bear met, somewhere in virtual world... there's something that pulls them together, is it the look? is it the similar background? is it the lonely heart? somehow... there's a magnet thingy in between...

it wasn't long for them to meet face to face... could it be love at first sight? they shared the same laughter over the meal, they danced in the loud funky music, they moved as if there is string pulling them together... and the intimacy they are sharing brought them into each other life...

time flies, Mr polar bear returned to the north pole... little lizard is back to her busy-fame-crazy life, they are back to two individual again... smiling but distance somehow pulls the two together, in a magical way...

Mr polar bear told little lizard to have faith in him, to be optimistic, that their feeling for each other is mutual... absence makes the heart grow fonder, that's what little lizard told Mr polar bear...

little lizard is falling for Mr polar bear, but she knows she doesn't wanna change a thing for others again, not even Mr polar bear... well she might, but just not now... and she wouldn't want Mr polar bear to change a thing for her as well, because she's been there, done that, and know how it feels to loose yourself for others... its killing!

one day Mr polar bear told little lizard his mom ask him when is he getting married? he has asked little lizard does she ready to settle down again? she told Mr polar bear that she would if she met the right man again... and she knows that Mr polar bear is a great family man, because her feeling is always right :) but is he ready to commit himself? since she understands that he would have to travel a lot and the last thing for him is to have a commitment...

faith bring them together, if distance has to be the challenge for them to test their love, they will just have to run with it... if the hearts are fit into each empty side, it will eventually string them into an item...

they weren't shy to let each other know their feelings... that's what keeps them close...

thanks for the love Mr polar bear, I'm grateful to have met you and be part of your life... no matter what the future holds, we will always be part of each other life!

dear God...

2011-03-16T12:13:00.003+08:00

may everyone stay healthy and safe and happy...

i'm scared to wake up in the morning because i'm afraid of receiving another bad news...

Terrenz lost her dad in a sudden accident ...

stay strong my dear :) there aren't words to describe how i'm feeling now, but definitely i'm not feeling good :)

well... the good thing is, after a rainy day yesterday, it seems to be a bright sunny day today!

thank you God for loving me... i feel grateful for everything i have!

i'm breathing sadness...

2011-03-14T19:10:00.002+08:00

its been raining since March 11... as if God's crying... i guess everyone is feeling sad... this was probably the worst that i've seen, severe quakes, terrible tsunami, follow by fire, and now, it's the nuclear plant explosion... which lead to the leaks of radiation, and it'll probably affects more and more people because radiation travels with air and rains...

couple of weeks ago, right before the quakes in Christchurch, i had a very weird dream... i was a volunteer in helping out in some mass accident place, with Leo, we joined the group of people and just helping out... i told BaoBao my assistant about this and we just laugh about it, but deep down... i don't know, i had a very sad feeling after the dream... then it was Christchurch... and follow by Japan... i'm not a prophet, but i know sometimes i do dream about the future, had experienced alot of time, May Jie did tell me i'm a very "sensitive" person towards some psychic thingy... i dunno, it's just a feeling but most of the time turn out to be the reality! scary ya...

well... live life to the fullest, i always tell myself this, if tomorrow is the end of the world, i won't be regret of anything because i've done everything i wanna do... except... i do wish to be with him...

i'm chanting alot lately... just wanna do something for everyone that i love, everyone around me!

i still believe there's rainbow after the storm!

sad... but feeling grateful!

2011-03-11T22:34:00.004+08:00

heard about the earthquake and tsunami this morning... this isn't the first bad news i've got in this week! what is happening around us?

YJ called in the middle of Sunday night and told me he and Rachel has lost their 2nd baby, its already 7months old and just lost its heartbeat out of the sudden... and he lost his words and cried... i've known this guy for more than 10years and he never cried infront of me, he has always been my big brother... and i lost myself in tears with him... ohhh gosh... i just hope he and Rachel will get over the sadness soon...

i should probably feel grateful for everything i have now... i always do! and especially everything that happened this week... makes me realized that i should really enjoy the moment, and have faith in the future!

and seriously i'm glad Toyoko is ok!!! gosh, was so worried about her...

hahahaha... and because of the quakes, Stuart becomes so anxious... hahahaha.... yes darling i'm fine, Japan is pretty far away from KL...

lot of people were talking about the 2012 thingy... well... why not just live life to the fullest while we can!

and i believe that tomorrow will be a better day!!! i want my rainbow after the storm...

ohhhh dear...

2011-03-09T10:35:00.003+08:00

i know i'm probably the most terrible person living on earth...

i really din mean to hurt him... really... it hurts when i see tears from his eyes... i know he loves me so much, i know he would do everything for me... but i only wish i would feel the same fore him as he feels for me!

i've known him for more than 6months... he has always been a good friend to me, i thought may be i would have had more feelings for him... but... i only learn that it really need 2hands to clap...

well... after this entire week, i only realized that i'm a total weirdo, yes i am... i'm too independent, i need someone who's stronger than me, wiser than me, someone whom i feel secure even he's not with me physically :p someone who actually finish my sentence, hahahaha... i thought i was asking too much, but apparently he does exist, hahahahaha....

he said our feelings are mutual (which i agreed...), he said he likes me alot (which i like because its not love yet...), he said we should have faith and be optimistic that we may work things out in the future (i'll just let things run with what it suppose to be...)

hahahaha... see... i'm weirdy right? yes i am... which i'm glad too because i realized that i would be a better person to be loved if i dun put all my attention in love :p

*hey Nik, i do hope everything turn out like what you said :) though we dunno what the future is holding for us, but i'm glad i've met you, and i'm glad we have giggles so much the such short time? til then... i'll be missing you!

exhausted...

2011-03-01T11:02:00.003+08:00

woke up feeling so depressed... yes i know its not a good thing... i tried to remember what was the dreams about... but i dun recalled i had any dreams last night... its just the feelings that i can't hold back, so sad... or probably so stress? and i just cried... yes, can you believe it, i cried my breath out early in the morning, first thing that i did today... gosh... what a day!!!

i can feel the stress again... yes... its the coming shows... 3 all together... and though i've done most of the designs, nothing to worry actually... i just dunno what on earth is happening to me... financially? probably... i know it's how the thing runs, money comes in, and out... its just that i wish the money that comes in are bigger and bigger, hahahaha, well at least i feel satisfying of my hardwork...

well nothing comes easy... hahahaha sometimes i do wish i won the lottery :p but then again... i've never bought any, how am i to win one... hahahahaha.... funny ain't :p

well... days are still bright and i'm going back to work!

time flies.... really!

2011-02-15T11:48:00.005+08:00

only couple more days and it'll be the end of Chinese New Year... hahaha how do i remember with my chipmunk's brain, because the last day is the anniversary day of grandpa's memorial day, the Lunar 15 of the first month is also the day my grandpa passed away... that was nearly 15years ago... so time really flies, with a speed boat :p

anyway... it was the Valentine's Day... hahaha... nothing much for me, and i almost forgot about it :p hahahaahaaa until Mr Tiger called and wish me when i woke up :)

meet Mr Tiger the Chicken :p (i dunno how on earth a man owns a soft chicky :p and we have just start naming it as if its our baby :p well its fun though)

he is totally different from the normal Spanish, he does tell romantic words, but it's always become very diplomatic when the words are told by him :p cute eh! yes... that's my Mr. Tiger. i still keep a little distance because I've met so many Spanish, they are just born in the genre of flirting :p hahahaha, well i know it's unfair to stereotype everyone... anyway... time will prove a person, and i've got nothing, but time and patience, hahahaha! damn...

hahahaha... though i'm pretty much alone in this time of the year :p i've got dozen of presents, heeheeeheee all shipped in, yea... *show-off* hahahahah!!!

little daily note from Mr Tiger :p sweet isn't it :)

hahahaha.... oops... and of course, Benjamin won't forget :) he always remember little things! and that's kinda scary... hahaahha....

its a handmade wire rose by Ben, and book, he knows i love reading non-fiction book :p

and i'm as sweet as these strawberries... gosh!! these are the best strawberries i've ever taste, thanks David!!! (and no... he is a very good-friend)

*well... i never thought i would meet Mr Tiger... well yes... i like him a little bit more than Ben, i dunno how to explain, but they are both similar personality, apart from being totally different individual, they have the same character :p serious at work, and do everything by steps :p they won't tell me cheeky notti stuff, they won't ask anything that makes me uncomfy, they always put me on priority :) when they told me they are visiting me in KL, they come :) hahahaha... well... sometimes i dun understand... i couldn't be that lucky, right? i mean, both of them are professionals, they are rich, good-looking (yes... all my friends are jealous), single... and i'm just so lucky? i dunno really... alright, i should be chanting more and more... to be thankful to God!!

anyway... i'm still keeping a best-friend-relationship with both of them :) that's the best i can do to not hurting anyone :) especially myself :p

happy Valentine's Day people!!

my big boy!

2011-02-09T16:58:00.002+08:00

my boy during Chinese New Year :)

Leo boy will be 2years old this June, and he is getting more and more steady these days, still a big baby sometimes, but i can feel the "man-ish" in him, even mom and dad said he is a perfect baby! hahahaha

proud of you baby boy!

be happy! and stay healthy for mommi!

cracking brain

2011-02-09T14:44:00.001+08:00

ohhh... i'm counting the days....

hhaahhahaaaa.....

lovely inspiration for Bridal wear...

2011-02-09T14:23:00.005+08:00

i've been searching for ideas for the coming Bridal Collection, and found this very cute site -

Clayton Austin

i love their ideas for the wedding!!! just sweet, warm and loved... hahahaha... may be my future wedding? yea.... hahahahaha....

this is my favorite picture of all...

another Chinese New Year, but this one's better than the year before :)

2011-02-07T15:34:00.006+08:00

finally... well... holiday's over... not literally but everyone's back in work today, school is reopened, and i'm back on my drawing blocks for new ideas... though CNY last for 15days, and well... we normally will wait until the final day because that's the day grandpa past away... let see... nearly 15years ago... yea... time flies really...

i've been working like a cow before this holiday... well, that's how it goes here in Asia, almost everyone works like a mad cow before CNY, it's like a "year-end-conclusion" thingy for business! and everything will start all over again after the celebration... hahahaha.... and yes, we are lucky, because we celebrate New Year, then Chinese New Year, then Raya Puasa, then X'mas... hahahaha.... almost 4new years a year! lucky us :)

anyway... gotta get my butt back to the usual working desk... hahaaha... i'm actually looking forward to it, weird huh... yes because i love my job, hahahahaha.... because i've got tons of deadlines to finish actually!

let see what i've done during this CNY, and Leo is happy too because he has mommi to play with him more than before :)

this is what CNY is about --

EAT

DRINK

PLAY

hahahaha.....

ohh... and i also visit my childhood place with mom and dad when they pay her sister's a visit, and found this old ally with the old-school laundry shop :) i used to walk pass here every week to go for my piano class :p and got chase by dogs, hahahaha!

little potty at home :)
and of course, meeting up families and old-friends... its something like X'mas, and we'll do it again in CNY, hahaha love it!

"lou-sang"

and not to forget... chanting in temple, i love doing this, haahhaha feel so Chinese in me :p

wishing everyone

a very Prosperous Rabbit year!!

hop, hop... and keep hopping forward!

Chinese New Year Mood in Raeka Rae

2011-01-16T23:57:00.003+08:00

well... i'm not a big fan of Chinese New Year... because its always the hottest time of the year (well... apart in Summer) and i've always gotta attend lotta gathering that i dun even know half of the people in it :p yea... i know ... i'm a weird creature :p

anyway... Raeka Rae has to change its "clothes" for CNY :) and it really cracking my brain... hahahaha... i'm never good with this especially i'm actually on the 1st floor and this is challenging because i've gotta create something interesting and loud as well as impressive!

anyway, i've always fond of Chinese paper cutting art, so i've applied that into my Honeyroastedbunny :) make it a "twins" as i wanna have the idea of "double-happiness" in the chinese culture, and within the twin-bunny, i've actually insert 8 bunnies, so with the "twins" it makes them a Ten (which in Asian Culture its a Perfection, hahahaha....)

well... with 2 big lattern, its complete, hahahaha... well... may be i will make more interesting window during Easter and coming Summer :) hahahaha... i bet i will, loving the Summer!!

i need to go back to gym... need workouts badly, haahaahaha....

Bunny year is here...

2011-01-03T20:48:00.002+08:00

yes yes yes.... am doing all sorta researching for the chinese new year decoration for Raeka.Rae... its kinda brain cracking... geezzz.... stuff me with carrots... hahahahah... no i prefer chocolate cheese cakes :)

ideas found, concept set... i love paper cutting... so this year will be doing lotta artwork with this folkloric art... ohhh yes... and again... the folklore thingy, i just cant get enough of the folklore artsy thingy eh... hahahahaha!!!

anyway... looking forward for my shop's final deco!

Xin Nian Kuai Le

Leo boy getting his fame!

2011-01-03T18:07:00.003+08:00

hahahaha... its a great start of the year for my boy... yes Leonardo Jacob... what a serious name he has... and indeed, he is a serious boy, when he is in his own world...

sometimes i wonder what is he thinking? food? or me? hahahaha.... never mind me...

well... got this message from the editor of Oriental Daily, asking me if i would like to share my life about me and Leo every Monday... well... here we are, having a column for ourselves, hahaha... more likely, Leo is having his own column, and having me writing and Pan translating, this boy is seriously living a Prince life...

cheer up baby boy... he is giving me his "serious face" whenever i say NO... or i'm leaving for work... haiz... baby boy, mama has to work to buy you treats and toys lo...

a brand new 2011

2011-01-03T13:01:00.003+08:00

time flies... a year has passed... well, i'm glad it did because last year was not a very good year for me actually... what can i said... i never really thought me and Jiason would have come to the end for our relationship... i really thought we both love each other so much... its probably because of the understanding after all the arguments and fights... nothing left for us to mend it... well... i should say... i can never forget the time when he cheated on me... i did forgive him... but not forgotten the events actually troubles me... i hate the fact that i'm hopeless in the situation... which lead to the end of our relationship...

anyway... looking back... i was focusing so much into my relationship... and i've forgotten about families, friends, and my dreams... which also have me into the depression that i suffered so much... i hate to say this... i'm happy that i realised the truth, and i do thank him for hurting me, if it wasn't because of him, i wouldn't have realised how much love i have around me... and from that moment on... i'm learning to drop relationship after families, friends, and dreams... which i'm glad i'm achieving it, hahahaha.... cheeky!

and i do miss Chanel once in a while... but i'm glad Leo is with me... because the love i feel from him is nothing to compare with others... hahaha i mean human :)

going on my own is not easy, because having been living with another person, depending on him so much that makes me kinda retarded in doing alot of things... but i told myself i have to go through this... still learning... and in fact i'm enjoying being alone sometimes :) well... alone but not lonely :)

i dunno what the future will be, but i'm glad i'll be walking through with confident :) and i'm glad that God gives me such big opportunity in making my life better :) meeting better men... yes... i'm not rushing into another relationship, which i'm still kinda freak out about committing with someone... i guess i can only take things easy, giving myself time to heal and to truly accepting someone into my life, and i'm glad that i've got so many Angels around me to shout the mistakes that i've made! thank you darlings!

i've set my goals, and i'm achieving them :)

in love with Peony

2011-01-02T18:25:00.004+08:00

am using Peony as the source for my Bridal Collection, looking at this flower, makes me wanna fall in love again... hahahaha, yes it is that seductive in deed!!

"With a recorded history that dates back thousands of years, it’s not surprising that even the mythology surrounding the origin of the peony has multiple versions. One legend has it that the peony is named after Paeon, a physician to the gods, who received the flower on Mount Olympus from the mother of Apollo. And another tells the story of that same physician who was “saved” from the fate of dying as other mortals by being turned into the flower we know today as the peony.

The traditional floral symbol of China, the state flower of Indiana, and the 12th wedding anniversary flower, peonies are known as the flower of riches and honor. With their lush, full, rounded bloom, peonies embody romance and prosperity and are regarded as an omen of good fortune and a happy marriage."

Xmas 2010 - part 3

2010-12-31T00:15:00.005+08:00

Bangkok... here i come :) hahahaha... i miss this country, miss its craziness, miss the creativity, miss its yummy food, miss everything there...

it brings back lotta memories when i arrived... everything in the city remains the same, but... i'm a different person... better i suppose...

anyway... look forward baby :) i've got better things for me in front of me :) friends that share my laughter and somebody that loves me :p hahahahaha.... aint i?

hahaha... and yes... party of course :) here's RCA... fun... very local... anyway its a great experience :) hahahaha....

well then... the next day we went treasure hunting in Chatuchak... got tons of nice stuff, and most importantly, Leo's junk food.... hahahaha.... what can i say, he's a lucky boy!

ohhhh... and on our way back on tuk-tuk, saw this cute cafe! Bearoffee... cute eh :) Thai is always creative, and i'm not surprise for that! should have tried this out but i've run out of time on my last day there :)

wooo... and i met my Mr Bunny :) love it!!!

hahahaha... and i name this bunny - Stuart :p heeheeee he's mine now :p hahahaha.... yea i wish though!
ohhh... and i found my new love - butter crepe!!! yea!!!! i want this in KL!!!

Xmas 2010 - part 2

2010-12-23T11:59:00.005+08:00

Leonardo Jacob is ready for his Xmas holiday too... As mommi is leaving for holiday, super dog Leo will be re-united with his dearest mama & papa & bros back to his breeder... so he is looking forward and ready for his litle get-away too :p

mama.... faster... i'm ready!!

yes.... he is a super-dog :) hahahaha... he loves carrying stuff for me, including his own get-away bag (psss... this is actually my working bag)

mami.... why are you always so slow....
(pssss because i have only 2legs and you have 4, darling!!!)

MERRI X'MAS EVERYONE!!!

Xmas 2010 - part 1

2010-12-23T11:33:00.005+08:00

hahahah i love this year Xmas!!! i've gotten lovely people around me, though some are far apart; its the heart that's count :) love ya teddy Ben and Fishy Stuart :) muackx!

finally squeeze out some times for myself to roam around the Mall, getting little presents ready, feeling the cute Deco... here's some from Mid Valley City, it's just gorgeous!! i'm in a Toy-wonderland....

Say harlo to Santa's toy-land

Fly me to my dream.... hahahaha

my all-time fav : Merry-go-round...

Amazing!!!

Every year i will get x'mas cakes for Mommy, well... not a custom, but because Daddy always bought her cakes on X'mas, so it's kinda like a "tee's family" thingy, hahaha, and i started buying cakes when i came back from London, hahahaha... my yearly job now :p this year i bought a cute X'mas log cake, its chocolate!!! yay... hahahaha....

this is for myself :p yes... i love cakes.... can't help :p

well well... i'll be off to Bangkok tomorrow, yay yay!!!! gotta get ready... wondering should i bring my lappy? hmmm..... i'm staying back 2 more days alone... :) wondering what should i do over there.... keekeeekeeee.....

Dear Santa...

2010-12-17T12:06:00.004+08:00

dear Santa,

i've been a good girl all these while, though a little notti, a little bad, a little rebellious, a little lazy... but i'm still a good girl... all i want for this christmas is... i wish he can make it to spend Xmas with me in Bangkok... hahahahahahahahaha!!! geeee.... i'm really asking a big load of work eh? :p

i had the happiest day of the year... yesterday!! yes yes yes!!! Nadd will be in KL next Monday... hahahahaha... i thought he's just saying this as to make me smile, and that was about 2months ago :p and we never even mentioned about his trip, neither nor i have time to chat with him lately because was stuck in the "idea-storming-box" yea... his message makes me scream in the fabric store which kinda scared away the assistants, hahahaha.... ooops, sorry sweetie!

anyway... whether Don will make it to Bangkok with me, or not, i will still have my lovely Xmas with the girls!!! yes yes yes... i will, i won't let my feelings being ride under those men, yea... that's the result of being hurt tremendously and well... scars healed, experienced learned, lessons taken note, and here i am for being who i am :)

just like he said, that's what makes me attractive, because i am real :p hahahaha... and i actually shout at him :p oops... sorry, because i was angry!

anyway.... dear Santa, please grant my wish, i wanna have a great Xmas!

Merry X'mas everyone!!!

*psssss.... if he did make it to spend Xmas with me... gosh... i think I'll bloody fall for him! gee.... i never had met such a guy that literally fit into all the empty cases in my brain :p

Eat Pray Love...

2010-12-10T12:45:00.004+08:00

Leo is sick since the Thursday early morning... diarrhea... badly... i've been up every hour just to bring him to his toilet, clean the poo and clean him up! in the morning, we both were total exhausted... slept for couple of hours and brought him to Dr Yeoh... and yes... he took the wrong food - MILK!!! that's what makes him sick... poor baby...

i did went to the meeting and workshop to finish up some work, but in a total blur-ish mind... and the worst part is... i can sleep when i got home early... brain still working but eyes are closing... that is bad... so i stay stoned... until midnight, yet still pretty much "hyper" haaaaa... this is so funny :p

there's a part in "Eat,Pray, Love", the Italian was saying, we should enjoy the life - hahahaha... yes... may be i should, life is short anyway, and by meeting Manuel, knowing him more and more, i love this man, he really loves his life :) life is not about work, not about making a whole big bulk of money; life is love, and being loved! hahahaha... yes... do the things that you love, being with friends, day-dreaming... hahahaha... yes... isn't this insane :p and yes, he said i'm too serious, thinking about work :) hahahaha... that's why i'm stucked with my ideas... i love his crazy mind, his words of love :) though in some difficult Spanish and mostly funny English! hahahaha!!! this is how we communicate, yes its fun :) lotta patience and passion :) hahahaha!!!

life is amazing!! really... you really dunno when you'll meet some great people... and of course, when you meet the right person, its just like drinking a glass of water, yet it taste so sweet! i love this... i love the simplicity of the plain water, nothing fuzzy, and its forever... i want this love, though i'm scared, everyone is afraid of loosing, but i don't mind to give it a try this time! yes... its crazy, i trust him thoroughly :p i'm total crazy, haahahaa, he is charming and i know there should be tons of girls surrounding him, and i've learn that love is not about owning someone, love is about accepting who the person is, the good and bad... everything... i dunno since when i've already become this person now, but i love the "veni" now... haaaahaahaaa...

he went for his snowboard championship and its total madness :p we haven't been chatting, but i'm fine with this :) haahahaha... he'll send me a sweet note before he sleep and well... after a whole week of "separation"... i've got this crazy proposal of his... hahahaha... well, this is not the first time he propose, hahahaha... that's sweet!

"a mi querido Manuel, me encanta el hecho de que usted me hace creer en el amore otra vez... Se que esto es una locura, Te amo por ser tu mismo, siendo la persona que me traen reir y sonreir!"

who cares what it will be for us tomorrow, live the best in this moment!

living in this moment...

2010-12-06T20:17:00.007+08:00

alone in the shop... well... i'm really exhausted... by alot of things... part of it work, its been a non-stopping workload... never ending work, work, work... i wonder why Ben ask me to slow down and eat a meal... hahahaha he said i look starved... am i, God... i'm not, in fact i'm eating like a bear :p

met Ben, a lovely German guy from Hamburg, down to earth, nothing fancy about him, just a plain guy with a big heart that always be here for me whenever my heart calls :p like an angel, hahahahaha.... that warms my heart in the rainy days, a cuppa hot cocoa, that's what i call him, but he said its more like a bear, because i always fancy the Polar Bear - Knut in Berlin Zoo... :p
and yes... hahahaha... he knows i love fairy tale :p yupyup, waiting for his transfer to Asia... but honestly i dun really wish he does that... we are more like a soul-mate :) well... god knows what the future holds...

been learning the Spanish, my goodness, i sucks... hahahaha, it's more difficult than i can imagine and Manu always laugh at my broken Spanish, hahahaha... but i have to be at least a basic fluent in in before i landed myself in Madrid :p hahaahhaha.... he got me some Spanish courses, but i turn it down because i can't stay in Madrid for such long time... Raeka.Rae is still growing... though it's slow but it's growing... i love the crazy mind Manu has, those crazy thoughts that's so inspiring, and yes... i've got all X'mas month plan out, thanks to the lovely Spaniard, hahahah!

Mom is saying i'm collecting stamps from all over the world, hahahaha.... well, am i :p

learning Spanish is because of the approach of Spanish Trade Com, i guess if i really wanna have trade thingy going on i should at least speak some Spanish and French doesn't get me further, apart from sweet talk with some cute French boy :p hahahaha.... and meeting Manu is really an accident that we will just laugh at ourselves :p we will see how things go during the Madrid trip :) hahahaha i know this guy has all thing plan out romantically... well as usual, Spaniard :p he is too good looking to be true, but he is :p hahahaha....

Thanks to my big brother Allen, having had all serious lectures from him, saying my heart is closed and i would just shut everyone off whenever they tried to approach... it was such serious talk that got me into tears, were drunk and scolding him for not understanding the pain i was going through, his words were harsh, and they actually slap right on my face that out of sudden that i wake up from all the walls that i was building, as to shut myself off in hiding... bad eh... yes that was me before Allen found me... then met Bob, a senior from CSM, a tattoo artist now and he got me the "wings" that i always wanna make, it was painful, and it was like taking away all the pain that i suffered all these while... crazy right?
hahahaha.... and Manu thinks it's damn sexy :p and surprisingly he has an oriental element on his back, exactly the same place as my wings :p we were laughing when we saw each other's tattoo... we were like the lost twins that found each other after 30yrs :p hahahaha!!! yes... we are more like siblings... a family :)

ohhh... yes i'm in love, being loved is wonderful, and having had someone that makes me smile is a grateful thing i could have :) lately i've been having the thoughts - being thankful and grateful for everything that happens around me, because good or worse, they are here for a reason!!

back to work... i'll be meeting some European Trade people this coming Wednesday for some exhibition and shows... dunno what will be happening really :p finger cross that everything goes well :p hahahaha... bring me back to London.... hahahahaha!!!

my big boy

2010-11-22T16:45:00.002+08:00

bought a "hottie" from Topshop the other day, its stuffed with lovely lavender weeds, well... and Leo gets very interested with this little lamb, hahaha.... and he really treats him like his new BFF :p hahahaha!!!

well... not only he thinks he is a human in a dog-costume, he also watch telly... as usual! well then, i have a super-dog, haven't i ... hahahahaha!

just love him! who's not? :p

a little magic

2010-11-22T16:00:00.005+08:00

i love cakes, especially cupcakes, always!

*all photos are from Flickr

a little inspirtation...

2010-11-22T14:56:00.002+08:00

and again... all these lovely pictures are from papertissue

a date with Harry Potter

2010-11-19T11:41:00.005+08:00

Finally after all the waits... its HP7, yes... its only the 1st part of the long story... its not children movie anymore, hahaaha a lot of the scene are very violent, and scary as well...

my favorite character - Hedwig the Snowy Owl of Harry's

well, we will still have to wait for another 6months for the Part2 to be premier.... hmmm.... let me dig out the books to refresh a little :p

well... anyway its been awhile since i last watch movie in cinema :p really out-dated these days... hahahaha... work work work.... i need a break!!!

all about Art!

2010-11-12T14:10:00.006+08:00

i love this project, its tiring, but i love it!

haven't been doing this for so long... 10years? hahahaha... more than that! I'm really getting back into the Artsy fartsy thingy lately, i wanna paint and paint and do whatever i love to since young... fashion is draining me and painting is recharging me, drawings is refreshing me :p hahahaha... ya, like what mommy always said, the crazy artist! yup, that's me!

its a 2011 Trend report thingy for Dulux roadshow, they have done a giant display (with other artist) and I'm in charge for the miniature showcase :p (is it because of my size?)

"The Beauty of Everyday Life"

"Made with Love" & "Molecular Magic"

"Made with Love"

"Molecular Magic"

"Pop Up Pleasure"

"Finding the Way"

well... i'm glad that the client loves it! and in fact, i've got some people asking for my next installation! wooo, great, i love doing art for $, just like back in London!!! glad that people do appreciate :) wish me luck!

Mifw 2010 - "Breakfast at Tiffanny!"

2010-11-12T13:40:00.007+08:00

well... haven't been doing Mifa, or Mifw since... gosh, i think it was since 2008, hahahaha... totally forgotten about it anyway, the only thing that everyone keep remind me about is - ohh... you are the Mifa winner eh?

Yes, indeed i am :p hahahaha... kinda proud yay!

anyway... participate in this year Mifw is because Mama G was asking, and well... since i have prepare the collection for Fall 2011, why not? and everyone is looking forward for my come back :p (really?...) hahahaha! i hope so!

here's the preparation... as usual... preparation takes longer than the actual show time :p

and enjoy the show! thanks Shu for taking the pictures!

as usual, the finale - and i looked blurred :p

and we have a nice video taken by Camelia @ FB

Notting Hill...

2010-11-06T06:10:00.004+08:00

Read Camelia's wall... brings back some of the memories...

Anna said "I'm just a girl, standing in front of a boy, asking him to love me..."

Jas, i'm just a simple-minded girl, sorry for the insecurities, we both shed tons of tears in the past, i know what you are afraid of, because that's what i'm scared of!

my love for you remains the same as 10years ago, i'm glad you are back in town, i'm glad you are near, though we hardly seen each other, but you always know that i'm just a phone call away...

with you i feel safe, i know you are always mine... so please don't loose faith in me, i won't leave this time, not without your permission!

yay....

2010-11-03T01:10:00.006+08:00

i've finally got my pay-cheque from the previous project... God, they really delayed the payment as in "snail moves" anyway, still happy about it, i got it :p

i went for my "beauty" shopping last night after work... had a quick shop for toiletries and stuff, hahahaha... a girl has to do what a girl's job - tarting up, aren't we? love shopping, just need to fill up my make-up pouch, my bedtime reading, and other stuffs... yay, pretty much a hell lotta things!

hahaha.... its my favourite make-up brand "Benefit", i'm a loyal fans, because it makes me shine :p like an angel, hahahaha.... funny! new lip-gloss in pink (i found out i really need some "color" on my lips), youRebel is my fav make-up base that brighten me up, and the new blusher, natural... i love it! got the new Japanese brand of Mascara and Liner, hahahaha... that's why my eyes are big-big-big, thanks to the super curl lashes :p

the pillow mist from Loccitane, its a must for a good night sleep, and my collections of lotion, hahahaha.... yay i wonder why am i in love with sweet lotions :p

i should tidy up some of these books... got the new "eat, pray, love", i've given my old one to a friend :) yay i love giving out books that's a good read, just to share, hope they read it as well, haven't watched the movie, just thought of getting the book again and read through it, it's a good book, inspiring!!!

and today was pretty much stuck in the shop, finishing the showpieces, making super-bling accessories... and style up one of my muse - Phyllis for the show...

busy-bunny and patience Muse for show :p Thanks babe!!

give me another 12hrs a day!!!

2010-11-02T00:37:00.003+08:00

i need to be inspired again!

i need to get inspired, recharged, refreshed... whatever the word is.... i just wanna runaway from all these... i feel so tiring!

anyway... it keeps me going, because i wanna go back to London :) yay... Plan A - back to school, yes... finally after 10yrs, i'm continuing my MA... wondering should i get back to Fine Art, or doing Fashion... not sure yet, anything will be fine as long as i set my ass in Artsy course, i'll be fine...

yay yay yay... got myself a deal with some big Paint company, pays well for a project, but i have to work it perfectly :p hahahaha, for my own resume, as well as my branding! yippie, thanks Yuen for getting me into it, well, as i said, friends are important!

anyway... some sucks... can't really believe why they just keep draining me... i'm not a gold mountain, that they'll just keep their way to dig dig dig... i know... i'm silly, and now i really have to say NO, glad that i've got wise people backing me up :) don't think i can work things out myself, still... my heart ache because i hate knowing people in such way, it hurts knowing they befriend with me because of the convenience! well, like dad says, things that can be solved by money won't be a problem... geezzz, i hate it when this happened!

ok... probably i'm just one hell lucky girl that doesn't need to worry about money, all i have to do is just pursuing my dreams and work the best out of it! but i work bloody hard for everything i earn, why can't other understand? hmmm...

only hope things will go smooth, because i believe "what comes around, goes around!"

and again...

2010-10-21T00:52:00.003+08:00

sick... ohhh gosh, i hate being sick :p who loves being sick anyway!

yea, i should stop party crazy! yea... gonna stay sober for as long as i can :p hahahaha.... not until the Halloween party as the girls are planning, and well not to forget the coming NuYou magazine's thanksgiving champagne party :p hahahaha, i love being the attention, not so loud, just a quiet one will do :)

yo i'm so happy that i finally downloaded pptv on my newbie pink lappy, tried so many times and finally! i guess being very sick do have the advantages, hahahaha... but i still hate being sick!

又对他发脾气，心情真的很不好，说了很多伤了他的心的话，不过我觉得他应该没听得懂我在说什么，天啊！就是因为这样我才会发脾气啊。。。但是，也许也因为这样他也没离开，天啊。。。我到底在做什么呢？我真正爱的是另一个他，但因为那个他不能给我快乐，或许被爱是比较幸福的。。。现在的我已经知道要如何爱自己咯！

we had a crazy post-birthday party last saturday, it was crazy, but not a happy one, thanks to that girl! gosh... she invited some shitty australian and germans and god-knows who else, well she always do that and all of us just hate it! but why didn't anyone tell her straight to her face, hey bitch just stop doing this because we are not some toys for you to be the centre of attention!
gosh... it was my birthday dinner, and end up i have to pay for the bill, well... who else because non of them wanna to bring out the wallet (i mean those 'MEN' that she invited over) how embarrassed it was when the waiter was waiting with the bill! later only i got to know the whole story and well... foreigners in Asian are really more like some rejected items from their origins cities, no offense to those that are not acting shit! they act as if they are so high-class... hey, how high-class can you be? funny...

and the worst is they order the Vodka to share amongst them and they can just pass the bill over to our table, what the fuck! this time i really told the waiter "hey look, i'm only gonna pay for whatever is on this table!" cheapo! i really dun mind paying for the dinner or the party but hey, not being forced! damn!!! i'm gonna curse until the end of the world... hahahaha! me being the evil! and i swear to god that i'm not gonna go out with her! my entire party turn out to be disaster!

and yes, i met a very cute German in the pub, he is nice, but i was just a pub-fling, everyone knows me, i dun bring party guy into my real life world, the bitch knows, and she start flirting with him when i was dancing with the girls, and she kissed him in front of me!!! ok.... fine... he is not mine anyway... but well... at the end of the day, he was with me when the Arabian guy bought me some shots, he just happened to be my body-guard, hahahaha, and the other girls were cheekily laughing like hell... yea, i know the way to get what i want, being bitching around just won't get you any further, that's my mommy taught me - be myself and always trust myself :) though i may not be prettier than her (well... botox and some fixture) but hey, i got what i want :p

enough for the gossip, i need my life back! i'm not gonna party with her again... the next time she's using me to get close to other men, i'm gonna slap her fake botox face! geezzz if you want a guy, go get it, dun use me, i'm not your toy!

tons of stuff to finish by the end of the week, and i'm hell stressful!!! no more sore throat and fever!!! please please please....

stealing some time off the busy schedule...

2010-10-07T11:33:00.004+08:00

yes... i need some time off, like a break, not to say a holiday, just a couple of hours, idly doing nothing, clear out the clutters in my mind, just to day dreaming, or shall i say, a blank brain, just not functioning because... my brain need to rest, tiny little brain is full of clutters... god, i wonder how am i coping with all this shit!

wooo... anyway, heard from mom that Aunt Sharon is now a grandma :) yo yo... i wanna see the baby pictures :p have been so busy that i nearly forgotten about my families, Ian and Jane, god i miss the 2 little buggers :p Ian has grown so matured that he would say "aunty Veni, don't buy me Ultraman, i prefer the big books you bought me!" hahahaha.... yes, he's my boy!

i have been missing all the family dinners because i have to work during weekends :( hope everything would get into a system and i can have my life back :) yes... getting my life back :)

little storm been tearing down in me these days...

Jason seems to be back then out for a the swim with Nemo :p hahahaha... yea... we are hell fated to be soul mate, not to say i love him, but he's just like a part in me, that's what ex-husband Jiason said! anyway... like he said, I'm always part of him, yea, I'm his favorite toy! damn, both these men are with the same name.... i'm crazy! hahahaha, and they should be good friend :) because they are both in love with the same Veni, cheeky!

someone ask me if i believe in fate, yea, from a Brits, and yes, i told him i do... well then, we meet people everyday, could be fate, but still, it is then what we suppose to hold on, or leave it! just like i was told that JH is fated to be with me for the rest of my life, still... i don't think so because i certainly think that we are 2 similar creatures that share the same feelings, we will be fated to be soul mate, but not lovers, how weird am i...

and well... enjoying my single life, because picking up the broken pieces are torturing... trust me, deep down, it still hurt a little whenever the feeling strikes, so... i don't think i'm able to love again, or not so soon... may be just like Gary said, he would rather be my fluffy blue monster then ask me to be his girl because i would love him more :p yea, go Brits, hahahaha... damn!

gotta go back to work... can't imagine i've got myself into 3 big shows in 3weeks time, i'm crazy, yes i am... haaha i'm just too hot to handle :p and well, i'm not sure if Andrea is coming just like what he told me, because the last time Thomas said he would come with us to the trip and end up with tons of excuse, ya... men!! i don't believe in promises anymore... well, if he comes that would be a bonus :)

anyway, i'm looking forward for Bangkok trip with the girls!!!! going back to "hometown" is good, hahahaha, yes... they said i'm Thai :p

a lazy Sunday...

2010-10-06T00:46:00.004+08:00

had a early "what's" by Michie, poor girl had some fight with her "so-called" boy friend, anyway, he is a jerk... that i know :p because well... he was flirting with me before he hit on her... well i did warn her, just didn't know she went that far to fall for him, i can only say this - "love makes people do crazy stuff!"

we had a jumbo brunch at Zanmai, yes... jumbo!
took this to show Gary :p hahaha, because he is always cheering me up! good lord, he would faint if he saw this picture! 2 rice dishes and a soup pasta, yes... it is Japanese breakfast... and it's a total weird thing for Brits, hahaha... because they only have cornflakes, or muesli, or toast :p

and so... we had the sweet dessert too... as always, meal with Michie won't leave without dessert, hahahaha, yes, we both have sweet tooth, and she's worse than me :p

and me with my natural hair... yes... frizzy curly messy hair!!! grrrrr... makes me look more like a Malay mix Thai mix Philippino...

and Sunday shop was crazy, and i love it, Manne came look around, and well, hope she'll fit herself in my bunny shop very well! finger cross eh!

and yes... Jiason came too... everyone gave me this weird look, how can i still be friend with him... and i really don't know... i move on, healed... still healing, and picking up pieces, but i guess i've already accept the fact that we are not meant for each other, and i'm really better off without him :p

anyway... starting the crazy days... finger cross for everything going smoothly!!!!

Milan FW 2010 by Tommy Ton

2010-09-26T18:07:00.002+08:00

this is the picture i love the most :) look at this old lady, so vamp!! i wonder, if i would dress like her when i grow old.... hahahahaha.... may be not ...

*courtesy of Style.com

London FW 2010 by Tommy Ton

2010-09-26T17:51:00.002+08:00

*courtesy of Style.com

NYFW 2010 sept by Tommy Ton

2010-09-17T13:52:00.004+08:00

*courtesy of Style.com

the muse in my inspiration - Marilyn Monroe

2010-09-17T11:53:00.005+08:00

i just love her, the way she present herself, its sometimes sexy, with a bit of childishness in her, and her smile, that would make other smiles :) hahahaha... subconsciously i wanna be her :p well, but i'm not as sexy as she is really... oops!

and i've found some of her quotes, love it!
"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."

"Diamonds are a girls best friend."

"You never know what life is like, until you have lived it."

"This life is what you make it. Not matter what, you're going to mess up sometimes, it's a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you're going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - they'll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, somg go. The ones that stay with you through everything - they're your true best friends. Don't let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well, they'll come and go too. And babve, I hate to say it, most of them - actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can't give up because if you give up, you'll never find your soul mate. You'll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn't mean you're gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don't, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about."

"Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring."

"I don't mind living in a man's world, as long as I can be a woman in it."

"We are all of us stars, and we deserve to twinkle."

"It's better to be unhappy alone than unhappy with someone."

"Beneath the makeup and behind the smile I am just a girl who wishes for the world."

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

the pig and the dog...

2010-09-16T13:13:00.003+08:00

说故事的女孩。。。

见了May姐，也问了我要问的问题，虽然得到的答案不是我想像中那么理想，但也每那么差。。。只是我还没准备好我自己的心情。

十年前的他是狗，他太聪了，也因为他的聪明，他的自信，他的细心，他的一切一切，他也就住在我的心里面，莫个角落，不经不觉的住了个十年！我也不自觉的默默被他影响，我对人的不信任，我的自信，我的细心。。。就想她说的，我已经是另一个他了，是否应该高兴呢？还是。。。

十年后的今天，我又回到他的手心里，就像她说的，我们的缘分是斩不断，就算我现在不再理他，以后我还是会回到他身边。。。那我应该开心，还是伤心呢？为什么就不能让我拥有我的幸福呢？

其实他很好，他也不错，只是我需要更爱我自己！那我和他，就能过的比较开心！有他的日子，其实是幸福的，他的细心会温暖我的心；所以我更要学会在没有他的日子，活的更开心！放心吧，反正只有我才能忍受像他那样的男人。。。我也不怕别的女人，因为他的挑剔。。。

那就祝福我吧！

Hari Raya Holiday...

2010-09-10T23:30:00.008+08:00

well, it is holiday in Malaysia, but i have to work :( been working almost everyday since Raeka Rae is launched! when can i get my break? i need my holiday, a real one... i'm really exhausted... really tired, both physical and mentally... but on the other hand, it is good too because i get to be on track everyday and get back pieces of me day by day...

... ... ...

been busy with "Charlotte", well... alot of preparation need to be done, its probably gonna be getting more of my time than Raeka Rae... i'm not quite sure yet, kinda stress out here... i've never really involve in kidswear, haaahaaa, because i never really know what a baby should wear or how they should wear :p well, i just hope everything turns out great :) anyway, Tiffannee is a great mom anyway :p

i'm doing the research when i found all these lovely pictures in PaperTissue, honestly this girl is brilliant, she gathers all the nice pictures, well, pictures with story, as i should put it, it always inspiring looking at her collections, and bringing me tons of great ideas... art is amazing!

and my everyday life... just like these...and these little plants are sitting in my RaekaRae's bathroom actually!

and my forever love for the ZEBRA...

i still remember mom told me i used to addict with a tiny zebbie when i was very young and it was a gift from an aunt :) hahaha, but honestly i dun really remember, i just know i always fond of this animal!

*ps: i'm gonna pick up my canvas soon :)

bunny on the News... again... :p

2010-09-09T23:36:00.002+08:00

Veni's world of fashion

THE raindrops on Veni Tee's black Vios appeared like glistening diamonds in the mid-afternoon sun.

For that moment, this 31-year-old's ride became the perfect resting place for her MIFA (Malaysian International Fashion Award) trophy, which she won in 2005.

"The Vios is a gift from my father. The award, a declaration of my commitment to fashion," says Tee proudly.

Her previous ride had been a Honda City, also a gift from Dad, but Tee who was only 18 at that time didn't have much time to drive it as she was in the midst of pursuing her BA in Fine Art with Central Saint Martins College of Art and Design, a prestigious art school in London, which boasts of designers like John Galliano, Stella McCartney and Alexander McQueen among its celebrity alumni.

Could it be wishful thinking to see the presence of the Vios, which must have come together with all the best wishes of a doting father, as a lucky charm of sorts for Tee?

For one, it had appeared at about the same time Tee was at a crossroad in her artistic career. For some reason, this artist would choose to pursue an advanced diploma in fashion design at Raffles Design Institute in Kuala Lumpur.

Considering that Tee had obtained a full scholarship at Central St Martins, her destiny in the arts would have been charted in steel but, as she said, she had reached saturation point with the brush and easel.

The next step was to find a canvas of a different sort to work with and textiles and the way they translated into moving objects of art on the bodies of everyday life appealed to her.

With the Vios as her trusty steed, Tee would find employment as a designer with Ladylike, a fashion label owned by Jer Asia Berhad which also owns MNG, Naf Naf and Calvin Klein Jeans.

"This was when I had the feedback of the sales ladies who told me if a design would sell or not," recalls Tee.

In less than a year, Tee was whisked away by MNG to be their brand executive where she learned about retail management. This included the headaches of handling staffing and setting up a boutique from scratch. It would be the lack of tolerance for office politics that made her look elsewhere.

"There were many people who thought that I was working for pleasure and that I didn't deserve the position because I already have everything. I didn't like to have people thinking of me in such a way," says Tee.

It is no secret that Tee' father, Tee Ming, who is in the property development field and drives a Mercedes E240, has provided very well for the family. Tee's childhood, which consisted of ballet and art classes under a Parisian trained tutor, had been a comfortable one.

"But the one thing about being a product of a well-to-do family doesn't mean that you will have everything given to you. My parents are very supportive when it comes to the pursuing of education but it must come with hard work. It is a case of they will teach their children how to fish but they will never catch the fish for us," says Tee, who is the eldest of two siblings.

And Tee did prove herself. At the age of 15, she was already sure that her destiny lay in art. This came about after she won the International Young Artist Awards which gave her a full scholarship with MIA (Malaysian Institute of Art). This would repeat itself as she impressed her lecturers at Central Saint Martins.

"People think I have gotten to this stage because of my parents but let me tell you, money won't buy you awards or scholarships," says Tee firmly.

So, it was with the same certain confidence that would see her to MIFA and end up walking away as the most promising designer and emerging as the winner in the best casual wear category.

If 2005 was a heady year for Tee, consider what 2006 was like. That was the year she met Gillian Hung, known to all and sunder in the fashion industry as "Mama G". Hung would put Tee's name in the lights by giving this young aspiring designer her own counter in Isetan.

From then on, Tee ran her own consignment business which spanned no less than five outlets and bringing in close to RM20,000 in sales on a monthly basis. The bull run lasted for three years before Tee decided to open her own flagship boutique, Raeka Rae ( meaning "uniquely beautiful" in Spanish), in Sunway Giza.

Clearly excited about her venture, this Malaysian designer is still reeling from the grand launch of her one-month-old boutique. There are still wine bottles decked in ribbons on the shelves. She still has the cup cakes from Wondermilk and sticks of premium chocolates waiting to be opened at the reception desk. Meanwhile, her collection is making the rounds of photo shoots for the fashion pages in the women's magazines. What has gotten the stylists flocking to her doors are the wearable but whimsical touches in her collection. There is, according to one fashionista, very few things that you will not like at Raeka Rae.

"I love my work a lot. I don't think I will ever leave this field," affirms Tee, who says her aim is to fill the world with beautiful things.

Of course, the business side of Tee is realistic. That is why she makes it a point to be at Raeka Rae to serve her customers, something she believes she must do. For her, work will certainly not be a recoining of the Vios "I Want" tagline.

"You must understand that fashion is not about designing what you want but what the customers want," says Tee.

To catch Tee at work, see her at Raeka Rae, B6-1, PJU 5/14, Sunway Giza, 47810, Selangor.

By Grace Chen

check out more on http://www.cbt.com.my/100827/veni039s-world-fashion

part of the dream... and its all about dream...

2010-09-08T23:21:00.006+08:00

Infinity Chapel at Conrad Hotel, Bali.

was doing research and found this really nice chapel in Bali... wo... and now, me, Angeline and Michie would love to have our wedding there :p its just all about a girl's dream, no matter how tough we are, we always wanna be the little girl who's being pampered and loved by the one that she loves, isn't it... but it sometimes seems kinda hard for me to fall in love... is my heart that's not opening to a new someone, or just i haven't found that perfect someone in my life :)

but... i want to have my future wedding there, just a quiet one will do :) hahahaha....

it's just dream like, isn't it?

Leo's in Raeka Rae

2010-09-05T19:56:00.004+08:00

Leo boy is working over the weekends at Raeka Rae!

well, i've always wanted to bring him to shop but there are lots of consideration, such as where is his poo and wee place, what if the customer afraid of dogs... and his ever shedding hairs... but then yesterday i was meeting up with Lilian, so thought of why not just try bring this furry boy over, and here starts his working permit :)

Leo is all suit up when he is in shop, well.. he is used to suiting up as i put him on scarf when i bring him out when he was very litte, so he knows he gotta go somewhere and do his job whenever i put something over him :)

he is a lovely angel, greeting everyone that comes in the shop, except for those that are totally "freak" out of dogs, hahaha... well, not to blame them because Leo's size is huge! :p but overall, little furry PR is doing a very good job :)

he is checking on the door... waiting to greet everyone that comes in

showing off his new toy, that he grab from the rack of Casa, where i brought him for his shopping treat!

hip hop look! i love Leo in this look, so tough!

Angeline and Leo... i love this picture, purposely made it in black and white... such mood :)

and finally ... Leo showing off his only tricks - hand for food... geezzz...

working trip in China.... food hunting...

2010-09-02T12:25:00.006+08:00

this is the end trip of to Guang Zhou for me in 2months time... this time round is more familiar, better in arrangement, but still tiring and exhausting!

work is good, and we eat alot... and alot... and alot :p

but mostly, we keep it to McDonald's, what else... hahahaha

and pop into an Italian cafe for lunch break... this is what i had... forgot what it was, but its tons of greens, i really felt like i'm a rabbit chewing greens... hahahaha!

and of course, i'll always go to this lovely Japanese Restaurant in Beijing Rd for dinner, because the salmon sashimi is GOOD!!! :p

and as usual... never forget about my coffee... how can i live without "you" - COFFEE.... :p

well then... i should be back next spring... meantime, planning for another trip... for holiday! with bunch of girls, and we are loving ourselves more!

its Sunday again!!

2010-08-15T13:32:00.005+08:00

well then.... its Sunday... again, but i won't and will never have a lovely relax Sunday like what i used to have... ever since the opening of this shop, like what i was saying before, my lovely schedule has been turning upside down... i hope, and i wish everything will soon come to a lovely, and perfect planning... i want my relax weekends again!!!

i miss having fun with Leo... really... the poor little giant has to stay in his "private" room whenever i go to work, and this means it'll take about 8hours and above, i really wondering what he's doing to spend all his BORING time in that room, with his favorite toy of course... but he's been a good boy all these while, he'll go in willingly when i tell him i have to go to work, and kiss me :p sweet isn't it!! oh... boy, i really wish i could bring him along to the shop, but he's such a big dog, and not everyone loves dog... poor baby!

and yay hey... i'm actually online in shop, blogging :p hahahaha, stealing lines from places, because the stupid TM told me that the internet line in Giza is full, and i wonder why can't they work something out and fix this problem, isn't this so difficult? damn damn damn!!! such a lame excuses....

and well, i met another Italian... hahahaha, yes, he is Italian :p and he's having the same name as the Italian boyfriend i used to go out with 14 years ago in London, Rodrigo :p hahahaha... he's young, younger than me, but the love i feel from him is lovely :) may be he's young :p not like Thomas, old man, hahahaha... well then... they are just filling in my list, not planning to go committed with any of them at the moment :)

i love being loved... that's the greatest feeling of all :) the attention that you'll get is a total bonus for me everyday... and its like a vitamin that will boost up my energy :p hahahaha.... as study said, women on their 31year old is the most beautiful of all :p hahahaha, and i'm bloody 31 at this very moment, so will i stay attractive and beautiful? well, i suppose its gotta do with a lot of confident that women need to build up for themselves, isn't it? loving myself, then will be loved by others :)

oh.... no more British, Italian is my latest crush :p

settling down...

2010-08-12T00:21:00.004+08:00

well well... a new life since the very first day of August, still getting myself fitting into the new work, and new life, and new schedule, and everything around me! kinda stress, because not only i have to think about the creative side (which i've no problem with...) but also the the money and marketing side (which i guess i'm kinda loss at the moment!)

anyway... i do wish my little ms PA will make herself more fit-in into the job, well, its a new thing for her so no point pushing too hard eh...

well then... preparing and planning for my new traveling trip... a not so busy August, then a more relax Sept, and will be fully back on work from Oct to next Jan... hopefully i can save enough money for my London and Italy trip, yes... and i spell LONDON... hahahaha... Italy its just another place i put in since i'll be in London :p anyway... things still going pretty surfacing with Thomas, so no point making everything serious, isn't it?

well, text JH, just thought of him, always... why is he always in my thoughts, damn! even there are other guys in and out, why am i always stuck with him? and everything seems like just repeating itself... the busy him, then busy me, the angry me... and the fed up me... so so so... since i told myself for sure, i'm not gonna repeat whatever that's been happening in the past 9years, i'm gonna make a change, for myself, for me and him... or a better me, perhaps!

and... surprisingly, he always replied my text in the quickest way, that's after i told him straight that i hate the fact that he always ignore me... ha! that was the time i was with James... yea hell... the donkey James :p hahahaha! always think he's so good, but he's never good at all! anyway, i love the fact that being straight forward really make things clear :) that's i love!

hmmm... but then... and again, what Lenny and SiaoLing mentioned was pretty correct, at least for me, i'm too strong, and too confident, and my moves and acts always make guys feel insecure (i guess Yimun mentioned this to me before...) so well... i'm still thinking what should i do to right this shitty attitude of mine... and yes... me being myself isn't gonna get me what i want! so i have to keep the "ms devil" low-profile, and bring up the "ms sweetie-pie" haaaaahahahaha, at least this is for those that deserved!

so now... no other men in my life, i just need to clear some from the list at least... Sean is out, totally, man... think about all those lies, it makes me sick!!! donkey!

and again... as for Thomas... we'll see, if he ever made it to the trip with me in Bali, i suppose everything would work out nicely :p hahahaha... i'm being too confident again eh? :p

and for JH, i dunno, i never know... because i dun even know what should i know :p me and him, are just weird! totally, i suppose... i like him, whether he likes me? or just out of attraction? i dunno really... he is a nice guy... but he never tells me where should i stand with him? and it always confused me... what am i to him?

if he would be just like Thomas, being straight forward, things would get pretty smooth between us... yes... Thomas makes things clear! he likes me, he wants me, and he's working out to get close with me :) isn't this what a girl want?

i suppose, there shouldn't be grayish zone, a black, or a white!

not in the mood....

2010-08-09T14:57:00.002+08:00

been sick for nearly a month.... damn!!!

its been really worked out for me, sore throat, body ache, fever, running nose, cough... though it never seems serious (because i've been taking antibiotics and downing orange juices...) God, i just wish i'm a healthy hopping bunny again...

i know... i need to rest... i know... its the stress!!! god!

i need holiday!!! need a big one :p hahahaha, can i boss?

my Raeka.Rae very 1st write up! thanks to Allen!

2010-08-07T00:17:00.002+08:00

RAEKA RAE DEBUTS

Submitted by pekwan on Friday, August 6th, 2010

Malaysian designer opens RM300,00 Spanish-themed boutique

Allen J.P. Stanley

Friday, August 6th, 2010 11:39:00

UNIQUELY BEAUTIFUL: Venie Tee (third from left) posing with models

KOTA DAMANSARA: Raeka Rae ('uniquely beautiful' in Spanish), the brainchild of Malaysian designer Venie Tee, celebrated its grand launch at its flagship boutique at Lot B.6.1, Sunway Giza recently.

The opening was held with much fanfare that included a cocktail party and fashion show as guests immersed themselves in Raeka Rae’s “A Modern-classical Tale” showcase.

The show featured the latest fashion trends for Malaysian women. “I'm showcasing the launch of my brand by celebrating Malaysian women. This season’s collection is for them to glam up and treat themselves to fabulous one-of-a-kind fashionable outfits,” said Tee.

“With our concept, every woman can bring out her uniqueness while expressing her identity to the world because at Raeka Rae we are true to the concept that no two individuals are the same," said Tee who won an award for the Most Promising Designer at the Malaysian International Fashion Week in 2005.

She got into the fashion business in 2006 with the Venie Tee brand which grew through consignment retailing at Isetan (KLCC), Zonta Boutique (Klang), and other Petaling Jaya boutiques into its newly opened flagship boutique showcasing her limited seasonal collections at Sunway Giza.

Tee invested some RM300,000 into the newly opened business and keeps some RM80,000 worth of stocks in store at any one time.

The concept makes Raeka Rae the place to go to for high street fashion.

The trendy store provides seasonal merchandise with clothes retailing from around RM80 per outfit.

Tee, also offers consultations on fashion designs and will attend to alterations and special orders. The boutique also carries a selection of accessories like necklaces, bracelets and earrings to go with the selection of clothes displayed.

From - The Malay Mail

Raeka Rae!! finally....

2010-08-03T10:56:00.003+08:00

yea... finally... and eventually, my very first shop - Raeka.Rae is opened!!!

well... almost everything is as what i want :) dream 1 - ACHIEVED!! yay...

its not easy to handle a shop, i knew that, and now i'm all into it, and more to come...

anyway, so many many people to thank, without them, i dun think my little shop would be here by now really...

some sneak preview though...

GOD i'm stressssssss!!!!!

2010-07-17T10:59:00.001+08:00

so many things to do... so many pending items... so many decisions to be made....

oh... veni this... and veni that.... really feeling i'm like a super-girl flying here and there... except for the Thursday that i fell so sick and just pop doctor's prescription and "faint" for whole day... well then another "re-energized" Friday to go... goodness...

Leo has been really annoying and he is really driving me crazy lately. i know i owe this little boy a big "sorry" because i only give him so little time everyday and by getting my attention, he just lost his manners and... most importantly, his "toilet-trained"!!! which is very important in our family because he is a house-puppy :p which he needs to go to his customized-toilet! but he's not, he just pee everywhere he likes..... faint whenever i got home.... that's a scary thought every time I'm coming home... the pee pee.... oh my god!!!

well then... so far all things are under control... just pray for the best for my shop!!! yay yay yay!!! oops... hell lotta money spent, and i can't give myself any excuse for not making the best out of me :p this is just veni :p

happy birthday Leo-boy!

2010-07-11T22:08:00.002+08:00

Leo is finally 1yr old!!! such a long time... hahahaha....

well but i'm crazily busy for work... rushing here and there, and lately i've only have limited time for him, really feel sorry for this little guy!

anyway, bought him this lovely cake on our way back from his boarding :p and he seems so excited about it while waiting in the car for me :p

and this time around, this fellow is acting much matured after back from boarding... eh... i guess he realized that I'm angry with his "spoiled-kids" attitude ...

now he's just sleeping beside me while i'm busy with work :) has always been doing this anyway... just wondering how can he be so tired :p too many friends at the boarding site eh?

muackx, i love you Leonardo Jacob, just make sure you grow old with me, remain your kiddish but grow old slowly boy!

"The Bridge Across Forever" by Richard Bach

2010-07-11T11:02:00.004+08:00

"I had grown up in a house with a fence around it, and in this fence was a white smooth wooden gate, two holes bored round and low together so the dog could see through. One night, the moon high, late for me home from the school dance, I remember that I stopped, hand on the gate, and spoke so quietly to myself and to the woman that I would love that not even the dog could have heard.

I don’t know where you are, but you’re living right now, somewhere on this earth. And one day you and I are going to touch this gate where I’m touching it now. Your hand will touch this very wood, here! Then we’ll walk through and we’ll be full of a future and of a past and we’ll be to each other like no one else has ever been. We can’t meet now, I don’t know why. But some day our questions will be answers and we’ll be caught in something so bright...and every step I take is one step closer on a bridge we must cross to meet."

*got this lovely note from Boho Market Blog

oops!!

2010-07-01T10:04:00.002+08:00

i think I'm in love :p

hahahaha.... nah... just happily being loved... by someone pretty far away from me :p

I'm weird, physically i can survive being alone but emotionally, i need love, a lot of it!!!

i certainly don't know what will happen between us... well... just let everything takes its own course i suppose...

muackxxx!!!

Saigon - come and go...

2010-06-27T22:23:00.006+08:00

it was a short holiday before all the crazy workload...

it was supposed to be fun trip for both of us...

well then, we did have lotta fun... in deed! and yet... though we really do sorta realized what's the answer would be by the end of the trip, but well... life's is about experience, isn't it? at the end of the day, we tried... though things didn't work out, at least we tried! and there's no regret for it! at least i won't!

i only wanna know my feeling for him, and well... we had a great time, but i don't feel anything for him.... oops... that's not that bad isn't it?

*sorry that i didn't tell you my true feelings, and I'm glad you feel the same about me... in fact, i don't think i would put you under my friend list after your harsh words, that's just me... and just to tell you, I'm not any other girls that would surround you and treat you as king just because you are a pilot, to me, you are just a pretty normal guy! and... nothing's so special about you... sorry, as you would want to know the truth, here it is...

busy, crazy... fun but exhausting!

2010-06-06T16:36:00.002+08:00

over these couple of weeks, I've realized life is a very weird lesson for us to understand... surprises... miracle? perhaps that's only explanation i can give.

every time i feel down... i just need to turn around and look into Leo's face, this boy will give me a big cheerful smile, its a real smile, i can see it from his eyes, that's the smile that warms my heart every seconds! sometimes i just wish i could give him more, more time, more love, and just everything more...

just couple of weeks ago, met some interesting people, had some real woman to woman talk, from the heart, its so inspiring! all i can says are, life is really weird, God make us meet some right people to be your soul guidance, because there are too many wrong people in our lives that driving us insane...

after weeks, life is totally back on the track i set for myself, though not always smooth (well that's why life is full of shit), but i enjoy having the ups and downs, that's how we grow stronger isn't it? it will be busier, crazier and lovelier :)

met someone that i really look up to, well... in my life, i only look up to daddy because... hahahaha, i'm a daddy girl :) then by chance, met this old man, he's wise and open minded, total honour to meet him! though we just met, he told me not to fear to love! and yes, the greatest fear for me is to love someone, because I've had enough pain in the past!

anyway... life is great and I'm gonna live to the fullest!

Sunday...

2010-05-23T22:10:00.000+08:00

Well then... Am just staying at home on Sunday, kinda love the peaceful and quietness around me and Leo.

Ever since mr F and nel moved out, I've been hanging out with friends, getting drunk, my cupboard is stored up with wines and wines...

Then got in deep shit with mr JH, it's terrible! Life never be worst than these, got a divorce with ex-husband and got hook up with an ex but then totally screwed up the fling because I lost control of my emotion! How bad could it be? Tell me about it...

I do wish to runaway from these, just go to a new place, and start all over again... How I wish...

Reading John Gray's book, it helps alot, but it also makes me dig deeper into the scars, it hurts, really painful... I'm a total looser in love and relationship, but I'm learning how to fix the wrongs and really do hope I could accept a new person and have a better one in the future!

wo.... Leo's going to 1yr old next month!!

2010-05-23T13:30:00.010+08:00

time flies...

my little angel grow so fast, like a balloon, from a tiny bits of skinny cuddle pup to a giant furry monster :p just wanna go back to this sweetheart's growing stage, miss the cuddle stage!

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4months old Leo - just back home with us, adjusting...

and he is only size of a sit on the couch!

sticky glue, even mama goes poopoo, he has to wait!

wanna try everything mami's eating...

and getting really used to the new house :)

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5months old Leo - getting used to the new house, and becoming naughty everyday!

stealing mami's undies > <" copying everything from jiejie...

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6months old Leo - getting naughtier.... growing, and growing...

still as sticky as little...

first outing - aunty Queenie's cafe
and mama discover he can be a lady :p

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7months old Leo - bigger and bigger!

and more man-nish :p

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8months old Leo - getting steady... and i realize he really think i'm his personal toy :(

and the funny part of him :)

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9months old Leo - getting steady... and i realize he really think i'm his personal toy :(

learn how to show his temper > <" poor baby first time on collar and total terrified of his life :p

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10months old Leo - and he knows his way to get what he want now...

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Leo boy, i'm glad that i've got you under me, will love you always!!! and hey, stop biting mami's couch!

Saturday dinner with the girl

2010-05-23T12:21:00.004+08:00

well then, having slight hangover, i need my Berocca... wasn't really drinking that much last night.... let see, i had couple of Sangria, then just a little whiskey, and a Gin tonic in G6, that doesn't really make me high at all :p all no, I'm so damn immune to the alcohol, just like I'm immune to weed :p oops!

anyway... Miao came over for dinner, yea, its the dinner that i promise her ages ago... oops again, so since its Saturday, lets just have some girls night out - home cook dinner + party... and I'll leave the party because - G6 SUCKS!!! ohhhh no... dun shoot me, its just not my cuppa tea.

here's the table set up :) yea, i love setting up table, though this is just a simple plain one :)

miao at the table

and let see... the food i cook last night are -

feta cheese salad with boil egg, sun-dried tomatoes and olive

bruschetta - bacon+tomato+mushroom
and
roasted tomato pot stuff with bacon+tomato+mushroom

as for the main course -
ginger prawn with wine, bacon and chillies spaghetti

and my favorite Sangria

and so... my super PR of the day, non but Leonardo Jacob :p see how happy aunty miao is :)

my lovely boy!

an evening at FullHouse

2010-05-22T17:49:00.005+08:00

well then, since i got my toy, gotta have to "use" it as often as dad keep asking why is the reason i'm getting a new camera :p and the reason is... because i need a new pro camera for both personal and business (for the new shop and stuff...)

anyway, we went to this cafe in Pyramid, Full House, Nel has her 2yr old birthday celebrated in one of their branch :) the one in Pyramid is simple bigger and more crowded.

and i like the way they actually conceptualized the cafe in illustration-cartoon :) which is good because it does stand out!

the food there is not bad though, here's what we have -

salmon Caesar salad

*forgot its name*

lavender+mint tea!

and here's some scene in the cafe, they really pay attention to all little things :)

end of the day...

2 crazy sexy ladies... single and available, hahahaha...

ok... a pretty pic :)

before and after... that's 10yrs differences...

2010-05-21T18:32:00.002+08:00

wooo... look at me when i was 18 :p and found this picture of me and sweet mr Rodrigo! wonder how he is doing lately :p

oops... and this is me... a week ago!

raining night ... with my darling :)

2010-05-18T23:22:00.004+08:00

yea... i'm loving the nights lately, love coming home because thinking that Leo is waiting for his lovely mama..

harlo everyone! i'm a big big boy now :) my mama says i'm his super boy, jie jie and baba have moved out, i miss them a little but its ok, as long as mama is with me!

last night mama ask me to be his super model for his new toy, and see how handsome i am yay!!

yes, this is his personal couch! he conquer this when he first reach home > <"

this boy is becoming more and more darling lately, after Mr Foong and Chanel moved out :) its like i'm his only thing, but he is fitting in perfectly because he never really loves them more than his mama+playmate+toy+maid, see i'm the 4in1 package to him :)

and he's chewing off my couch... so will get new set after this fellow turn 1 :p

overall... life is busy and packed with loves!!!

love you Leo!

just a thought...

2010-05-10T20:20:00.004+08:00

love is really a poison that's been killing me! i hate it so much but just can't say no to it... life is really full of shit, how i wish i could be free from all these shit and just fly to a place without heartache, without tears...

everything start with a J is no good me, and I've proved it right, so right that I'm actually freak out! almost everything... since 16... everything with a J will end up bringing me tears, pain, and hurtful night...

i thought everything worked out fine with him, because he really treated me like a queen... nah... it's just some little tricks that old man does, to get what he wants really? i only needed his hugs when i was in deep shit, and he's blaming me for not understanding... OK then, so I'm the one that's causing all the misunderstanding and inconvenient between us isn't it...

i shouldn't have given him the second chance, leaving him 10yrs ago was a wise choice...

after shitty tears, after a hang-over weekends, i know i have to do something... yes, this time... i leave nothing for him to get to me, I'm not going to take his sweet talk for the 3rd time... 2nd chance is enough to prove that I'm silly (that's what he always call me...)

did a very adult thing, i sent him a final farewell text, before i deleted the last connection with him... he replied fast... but he won't get any reply from me again... at least i said my goodbye, not like 10yrs ago...

I'm gonna have fun for my Vietnam trip with Peter :) i know i would... and waiting for Pablo to pop in KL for my shop opening :) well then... leaving Jason is definitely a correct choice, because i never realized i still have angels waiting for me :p well then, no string attached, let things flow by nature course...

counting down to the day...

2010-04-21T13:32:00.005+08:00

wonderland, wonderland...

deadlines are here... i'm not burning the midnight oil/lantern :) surprisingly, its call the TIME management dear... am pretty proud of myself for this! yo... after 32yrs... oops!

am really excited recently, not that i've got "some" guys dating me out, well, guys remain as guys, and i'm not really into any of them lately, not that i'm changing my "interest", its just that somehow i just dun wanna get too close with them, sorry... pretty boys are good to see but bad to own :)

well well well, i think the fortune teller is pretty accurate, she kept asking me to go slow on my business, quote "so slow girl, open one shop by one shop ya, don't rush, do everything nicely and perfectly just as you want!" and i was kinda confuse at that time because i only wanna open ONE shop :p and now... there are plenty of nice offer... oops, Venie Tee is sailing oversea soon... will have a perfect sail, its all about preparation! Zzzz and bit exhaustion, brain cell is dying fast!

and... my "shopping" trip will start in May, then will be back on working for the GT girls again :) happy ya... seeing so many pretty girls wearing my design, hahahaha.... and then my mid-year shopping treat with the Shu, wahahahaha.... yea, mature-sexy-ladies like us are going to Hong Kong this time... finger cross for a smooth trip... then then then... another trip to Indonesia for Business, then... well i really wanna get my butt into Bangkok, but the non-stop riots that's happening really turn it off... hope everything is fine for Thai after May!

well, and the divorce thingy that's been going on, finally, the paper is here, will have it signed after my cousin has run through the content :) then i'm officially SINGLE-lady :) yuppie-yup...

well, i never feel so alive, hahaha... all these 32 years of living, only at this stage that i feel myself, that i'm actually living the life that i want. Gosh, but i really thank God for all the blessing, a great family, all those supports, and my great friends!! not to forget those that offer their help and assistance when i needed :) cheers life though...

alot of pending items...

2010-04-17T17:31:00.004+08:00

well... after all those chaos, everything seems calm and peaceful lately, its because everything its said and done, good or bad, right or wrong, there is no answer for this, like they said, there's no right or wrong in a relationship, things go wrong for a reason, and the truth is... i don't think i loved him as much as i think i did, its probably because of the habit of having him in my life, and the habit of him being away from me its also in the scene, I've actually sensed this, but stubbornly didn't want to face it in the beginning, and also because he gave too much "promises" in the past and i stupidly believe in the lies that he created.

Men love to lie, they will always have a "reason" or an "excuse" for any events. When we choose to believe, its not that we trust them, or we women being stupid, its because we CHOOSE to believe, and we CHOOSE to trust them! yet they would just take our trust for granted...

of course, there are still good men around, just not for me i guess... sad isn't it :p

honestly i dun trust men anymore, not that i don't trust them, just out of subconscious... i still trust my best friends, my families, my Leo-boy, because i know they won't do me any harm, the rest of the male creatures, nop... sorry to say that, trust should be earned by you, not me giving! if i don't reply your message, or return your call, because i don't think you are worth my time, that's me, and I'm a straight forward person, i don't fake my feelings like others, no offend, that's just me!

life is getting really busy for me! and i actually feel grateful for what i have, though my marriage and relationship life sink like Titanic :p it makes me realized that i have so many angels around me, people that i never thought they take so much concern for me, and yes, of course there are also those that are trying to take advantage from me... i still feel lucky, at least I'm still worth something, hahaha...

my boutique is coming in shape, so happy! its tiring really, but i feel great! wooo, can't wait for my own "bunny" boutique, and new collection, and my Leo-boy 1yr old birthday party!!! yo yo yo...

*ps: Chanel girl will follow her papa (aka Mr J), they are soon to move out from my bunny-hut, of course I'll miss her, but no worries, she'll come visit her mama and brother every fortnight.

黃小琥的沒那麼簡單....

2010-03-28T11:02:00.002+08:00

沒那麼簡單就能找到聊得來的伴
尤其是在看過了那麼多的背叛
總是不安只好強悍
誰謀殺了我的浪漫

沒那麼簡單就能去愛別的全不看
變得實際也許好也許壞各一半
不愛孤單一久也習慣
不用擔心誰也不用被誰管

感覺快樂就忙東忙西
感覺累了就放空自己
別人說得話隨便聽一聽自己做決定
不想擁有太多情緒
一杯紅酒配電影
在週末晚上關上了手機舒服窩在沙發裡

相愛沒有那麼容易每個人有他的脾氣
過了愛作夢的年紀轟轟烈烈不如平靜
幸福沒有那麼容易才會特別讓人著迷
什麼都不懂的年紀
曾經最掏心所以最開心曾經

歌詞真的太貼近我的心了...

poor baby Leo...

2010-03-27T16:32:00.003+08:00

my boy's front leg is suffering in having a big lump on his ankle... and he gets nervous when the doc put a needle and suck out all the infected liquid+blood, yak... and i'm so proud of him! he just sit still and let the doc do his job :)

reason on the lump - started from a broken vein, cause by probably being too excited, jumping, fighting and playing too much could have cause this... eh... hmmm... ok... then he starts to lick lick lick on the "bruises", he probably feel not comfortable on it, and this make it worst, the licking makes the bruises infected, and inflame into a lump... gheesss...

but luckily, the lump doesn't affected his movement, so he can still go for his walk, its just that this pamper kid get so annoyed by his new costume - the giant alien collar, and he gets very very grumpy, and moody, he doesn't wanna move at all... he refuses to eat, until i have to take out the collar and sweet talk him... haiz... boys always boys...
after 2days of being grumpy and mommy's billions sweet talk, Leo's finally get used to the collar, i just hope he gets well soon...

and finally not so grumpy...

*ps: Nel is on the alien collar too, because she's licking and chewing of her hand :(
grrrrr... why is my baby loves chewing their own hair :p

Leo's training...

2010-03-24T22:35:00.004+08:00

well well, as mention, the giant baby has started his training with little mama since last week...

we starts from having slow jog every morning for about 3km, and this is to train his back legs, work him out, have him familiar with my running/walking style and let him familiar with all sorts of noise, other dogs around the neighborhood, strangers... and this is what i learn from this little guy --

we go on different route daily (hahahaha... yea its a big neighborhood!), and because i dun wan him to get too comfort while training, and couple of days ago we met a big Rottweiler, she is quite gentle, but it freaks Leo out and he growl back :) hahaha.... my boy is turning into "a man" hahahaha...

Leo will get very excited when we leave the house at the beginning, but he surprises me after a couple of training, when i say "stay", he look as me and stop when the gate opens, then "go" and he walk close to me :) wooo hooo... he is better than Nel :p good boy!!

(i think Jimmy last coach is correct, if you've already build a good relationship with your dog, your dog will know what you want him to do... though i dun really like the coach at the beginning, but hey, he is good!)

now my boy knows he has to get his lazy sleeping mama up every morning because he misses one morning and we sleep til the sun goes up and he misses his morning walk :p hahahaha...

and... we will begin the "stacking" and "stay" next week, but i'm already doing it while bringing him out... so if there's really a "handler course" i will really get it, but hey... here is no America or Brit...

*ps... and still hope/finger-cross/pray... for my NY job, hahahaha.... though i know Leo won't have a big chance in getting into the Dog Show in the States (though he's from a good champ lineage, still... local breed dogs are not as perfect as oversea) i still hope we can get our life there and give him a great try! Because they are so Pro in oversea!!

*pps - Leo still chewing my sofas and carpet :( he will stay in the kitchen after the chew when i ask - who's eating up mommy's sofa?

*ppps - As for Nel, she's still the big sister, still chewing her hand, still have to sleep with mommy every night, and still gets angry with mommy when she leave house without her :p and still kiss mommy when her food is served :) God i love her so much!

A peaceful night...

2010-03-23T01:00:00.000+08:00

Our super air-con in my bedroom is not doing it's usual job tonight, so me and the kids have to move our sleeping stuff into my little workshop, they love it though, ha probably because the air-con in this room is cooler :)

I like sleeping in this room, makes me feel like those days back in the little room in RWH :) here I can see the starry sky, but tonight is not so clear cause it's raining now, oh I wish there's a comet flying over my little sky!

The kids are very "sticky" lately, Nel as usual, she loves tugging me as her pillow always, and surprisingly Leo sleep beside me now :p I should buy a lottery tomorrow!

Well and I'm still waiting for my comet to fly through my sky :)

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Wake up from nightmare...

2010-03-19T09:42:00.000+08:00

Woke up from nightmare this morning... I feel so pain... My heart ache...

Well I guess I'm really hurt subconsciously... But I know I will be ok... It's just another challenge in my life, but this one is the worst...

As I said, there is always a good thing in the worst event... It's Leo, my boy :) though he is still playful n naughty, and he is still very crazily himself; I can feel the attachment from him, yes it's a trust, hahhahaha with a dog ya? Surprisingly yes :) I feel weird myself too... Fate?

When I open d gate, I know he won't runaway, when we are out for walk, he'll always check on the slow mama, I can unleash him n won't worry he'll runaway, that's the trust that I have with him, not Chanel, not even Jimmy.

He always wake me up by kissing me, and giving me a warm cheerful smile that makes my day brightful, he always bring my slippers n sleep with it when I'm out working :p that's how much he loves me I guess, hahahaha!!

I dunno why I dun feel Chanel attached with me, I love her and spoiled her, but I just feel she's so apart from me, just like her dad...

As for Leo, I try not to put my full love on him because of losing Jimmy before, but he gives me a full love, and sometimes I just tell him little things and he act as if he understand, like I ask him not to bite his itchy hotspot, he will obey, not like Chanel, bite, scratch, chew, everything you say NO she'll do to the fullest!!!

And when I'm not feeling well the giant will hop on bed and sit beside me, he'll carry my bag and my slippers for me... Though he knows nothing of any tricks, but he is a perfect companion, he always check on his mama see if I'm fine :)

My boy, live healthy and happy and stay strong for mama!!

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从新开始咯。。。

2010-03-17T17:58:00.004+08:00

after all these ciaos that happened in my life, I've learn something great, to love myself :) yea... being a female is hell tough, we have to be stronger mentally because physically we are almost weaker than male, i guess that's why women live longer in our life :p hahahaha...

i knew a lot of friends worried about me, i just wanna let everyone know, that I'm fine because i've break out from the pathetic cocoon, and flying as high as i can, i will be the most lovely butterfly :p (dreaming again...)

anyway... back to my darlings... Chanel is on her mating season :) and she'll soon "re-united" with King Mong Mong again, i guess she'll be pretty excited about it because she has been seducing my baby Leo.... :( but too bad Leo has known nothing and hardly giving her the reaction, to him, he just wanna play with his "big" sister (as Chanel is 1size smaller than Leo now...)

growing into his 8months old, Leo is more stable, he just learn giving hand, and "stay". well i didn't force him to do anything he doesn't want to, so it's a freedom-wonderland for him... but the best part of him is that he now understand the meaning "NO", which I'm so in-love with him :) my boy is finally a good boy now :)

well... after a thorough checking with Alex, Leo will have to stay put until 1yr old for his first championship show, i guess this is probably his tactic, because seeing Leo in good shape, i can feel how happy Alex is, yo boy, mama is so happy for you :) and it means that i have a tougher job now, which is "running 3km everyday, the best is 5km" GOSH!!! what??? yes... and this is to train his back legs, and to train him run...

hmmm... ok, we started our workouts from Monday :p and i can see Leo boy is very fond of me though its only for 3days... that's what makes me smile, i can see my hard work has pay off :)

after the 40mins run... this is my lion king :p

*ps... as for Chanel, i'm only speechless, her hot spots cure thoroughly, but now she's starting to chew her hand :( so... i'm hopeless for her... she never listen to anything i ask her, accept for food, i wish she'll be more like Jimmy or Leo, why can't she be a sweetheart?

*pps: still waiting for my NY job reply... finger cross and really hope we (me and Leo) will be able to live there.... what about Chanel? well... she can live well without me.... sadly :(

the day i allowed myself to be who i wanna be...

2010-03-08T22:17:00.004+08:00

yes, it was Sunday... and he still continue to be himself... sometimes i just dun understand, why does he stay? he said the love he has for me is not as much as before... such a joke isn't it?

he said he read my blog, and viewed my FB, asking am i telling the truth... so what do you want me to say, i've said nothing for years... i've told no one when you were in bed with that other woman, i've told no one when i cried in deep shit... what do you want me to say?

what a narcissistic person he is! i always knew he was lack of self-con, but in fact, knowing him more deeply, God... he never love others than himself! all he think about is what's in his mind! but he portraits well, like a perfect lover, a perfect husband, and a perfect son... it's just his self portrait, kinda brushed up with colorful paints... sadly, i hate myself for not being stupid... knowing too well isn't bring me any good...

i know i have to tolerate with him, that's what i've been doing, but it just seems like he doesn't appreciate, does he? well...

when i cried infront of mom and dad, they seems calm, but i know it hurts them, i'm always their princess, and now i'm in pieces, dad says "just cool down, give yourself sometime off... let he deal with what he wanna be, you've done your part..." and mom says "well, you always have us, and your whole big family will always support you!" and yes, i know, that's why i hardly worries them... i've always been a perfect good girl! i guess this is the first time they see me in shit!

well... i posted the final words that i wanna express... that's what i want, because there are much more things for me to do other than this crap relationship i had with him, i wouldn't cry a tear for him now on :) yes... i know i will...

i need a break...

2010-03-05T15:10:00.003+08:00

i'm stress... so stress... so many things to solve, shits everywhere...

i'm hurt, so hurt that i cant even feel the pain anymore...

why? i was happy, and i thought i'll be happy? thought i am happy? this is all what i wanna think, but it isn't true, is it?

everyone thinks i'm happy person, that's what i portrait, am i? mom and dad won't have to worry about me, friends will be happy, yea, i like bringing smile and laugh to everyone, i love to be positive thinking for my friends...

its my little secret, yes, i have depression... and i was on medication when i'm in London, i know i need help, only she knows, yea... and people sometimes think i'm lesbian, but who cares, i feel safe with her...

i keep telling myself i'm fine and everything is perfect for me, infact that's what everyone keep telling me...

but i'm not fine, i'm in bad shape, totally bad...

i know i have to seek for help... but here is no London... people dun understand this sickness... i hope i have someone to talk to... no one... i hate malaysia, i hate everything around here, i hate being who i am, i just wanna be myself, i just wanna leave

god i damn need a break!

又是星期六。。。

2010-02-20T16:15:00.003+08:00

昨晚我和他又吵架了。。。又，是因为我们已经为了某些事吵了又吵，其实我已经很累了。。。

同样得话题吵了由吵，真的很累。。。也不想再吵了。。。每次都是一样，但是每次都会回到原点，所以昨晚我很冷静，一是他改变自己，从新再爱我（很想所回到以前的他，但是不可能回到以前的以前。。。）一是大家分开吧。。。

两个不同背景的人，相处真的很难。。。有时真的很辛苦，我想要的，和他追求的，真的不一样。。。我也知道要迁就，难道我还迁就不够吗？我也有我的梦想，我也有我想要。。。为什么只要求我付出，而你呢？

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we went to meet Master HanLin this afternoon, the appointment was set 6month ago, that's to check on our names, see if our names need to be changed for better...

it turn out... damn... well lets talk about Mr J's name, his Chinese name is bad for not only himself, but also people around him, his parents, his marriage(see...), and his kids(luckily we don't have...), does it surprise him? i don't see from his face, because he is those type of person that won't believe in what other people tells him, he is too self arrogant, just like the last time, after Master Wong changed the name for him, he only use it casually, not even inform his parents, so end up... not that i'm superstitious, i do believe somehow a name will shape a person, just like mine.

well then, i have to change my Chinese name too... its basically a great name, if i'm not married :p but it'll actually torn me apart if i keep using this name, haiz... sadly, dad... i have to do it anyway :)

everything that Master HanLin told us were so true, that we are arguing on some subjects, and we will be apart for work more and more (which is damn true)... so so so... change for a better future i suppose...

we'll be getting our new name in 2weeks time... hope its a nice name :p and pray for a better one for both of us...

the 2010 Chinese New Year -- after...

2010-02-19T17:20:00.003+08:00

well well well... finally its the red hot Chinese New Year, its tiring... the weather is so hot, and heavy rain always during the evening time...

on the CNY eve, me and Mr J went down to uncle's house for "bai bai" and brunch, then finish up the last cleaning of the house (mop the floor cause the elders always says on the first day there's no cleaning should be done) well then... since Mr J is a thorough "sincere" guy in all these traditional believes, things have to follow his way lor...

then me and Chanel go over to mom's place and Nelnel is getting her early angpow from grandma! and Nel's grandma insist the money inside is for Nelnel to buy her treats... yo... as if mama's gonna steal all the $$... haha...

Nel doesn't want to hold on to the packet, well... she doesn't like holding things, that's Leo's job to hold and carry things for mama...

well... wonder why mom will give Chanel angpow? because when Galgal was with us, i did ask an angpow from her, as a jokes and she always says Galgal is just a pet and its crazy and we all end up laughing... then her precious Galgal left us, then Jimmy... so mom wanna give Chanel an angpow so that she wont regret.... but choi... my baby girl will stay with us for a long long long time... as well as Leo the naughty boy!!

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so... gong xi gong xi... we woke up very early on the first day of CNY, then give both babies nice groom before we go out...
then Mr J took the pic... god i'm still in my pyjamas :( shooo... but i look skinny here, wa hahahaha... and look at Leo's face... he's been waiting too long, but patiently, that's his strength...
look at the big paws... this is how he tells you he's a good boy when he's besides you :p

then wait and wait and wait.... this little cheeky fellow's face has turn from an angel to a little evil :p
look at the face, when he was younger, he doesn't have faces like this :p now... whenever he is not happy, he'll show us this face and tell us how much he's "mo xong"!! hahahaha...

so baba keep making his boy smile for the camera :)

then me and Mr J had a tiring but sweet Chinese New Year, we meet all the relatives, gather and laugh, eat and drinks lots of wine, and we gamble... honestly this is what Chinese New Year does, and always will... its a never changing thingy as long as we stay in Malaysia :)

and we'll all end up - - -

exhausted!

the 2010 Chinese New Year -- before...

2010-02-18T15:39:00.006+08:00

恭喜发财！

its the annual Chinese New Year, well... of course from the last couple of blogs, we were busy doing the cleaning up and clearing out cutters, lots of stuff were sent off to the recycle collectors, lots of dust bunnies were clean out under the cupboards, and new cupboard is put up (yea, i construct it following the Ikea instruction :p) yea yea...

we bought some new plants after throwing away those dead plants, we keep everything simple, and learning from the past experience, those that are similar to cactus are the best plant for our garden :p

and apart from gardening, the kids are sent for their super grooming a day before the CNY eve, and we found a tick on Chanel's neck, and also realized she is discover alot of itchy hotspots, poor baby girl, and i guess and suspect she's actually having allegy to ticks and fleas, and those bugs did bite her, poor girl, but Dr Yeoh its not open yet, so i have to spray ACV and apply suffadine on her spots every other day, twice each day, and comb away those dead skins using flea comb.

he wants to sit besides mama... haha and he is total exhausted after a long hours in grooming...

then on the other day, we found another tick on Leo, God... and i have to apply the FrontLine on both of them and separate them whole night. wondering and thinking, i guess the ticks are from the neighbor's dog, ever since the little fellow is back, Chanel has been scratching non-stops, because i let both kids roam in our garden every morning, i guess that's how those hell bugs got to them!!! and now we have to spray our garden with vinegar, well... i dun really wanna kill those stray cats thought i hate them!

but the good thing is, a day after the tick control is applied, we found another dead ticks on Leo's fur, both ticks that i found weren't sticking on him, just on his fur, thank God!!

i hate ticks and fleas, and everything that will cause my babies sick!! but those bugs are so strong, i apply tick controls, spray herbal essence on them before let them play in the garden, check their whole body everyday, clean their paws and "pii pii" every night... haiz... still... the bugs just love them!

ok, forget about those bugs, here's a funny snap of Leo when he's doing his peepee... yes, and he always bring his toy whenever he is doing his business... anything is ok for him as long as he is holding on to something, and the worst is, if he finds me there with him, i have to stay until he's finished his business, if not he'll walk during his business and pee will shoot on his legs, poo will line a route all the way into the house... that's a nightmare for cleaning up!!

and again...

恭喜发财！

a sad day... a lost in fashion...

2010-02-12T22:52:00.006+08:00

woke up early this morning and received a text saying Alexander McQueen has passed away...

that was a sudden shock for me and Mr J... we admire him, and i adore him, he's such an inspiring idol in our life, and i believe everyone who loves fashion loves him!

at the age of 40, he is really too young to end his life in this way...

here's some of my favourite McQ designs:

May you rest in peace...